Ok,
So when I was in varsity I didn’t date until the very final semester of my studies. Huge, huge mistake; for so many reasons but that’s not why we’re here today. So the reason I didn’t date, the real reason anyway, was that I had become a teen mom the year before I went to varsity. The reality that sex leads to babies bitch-slapped me so hard that I decided, you know what, sex isn’t for me. That’s not to say I didn’t test if my stuff still worked after I had the baby👀 I was glad to see that it did but afterwards I took a “sabbatical” from the other gender.
In the midst of my loving-kindness-girl-power-I-don’t-need-a-man stint, not long after I decided to quit boys (coz let’s face it, I was still at boy level) I saw a guy whom I instantly, without cause fell in love with. Now don’t misunderstand what I’m saying here I fell in love, he didn’t. He didn’t even know I existed. I swear in my mind that moment I saw him in the passage of the maths department in building 7 he was moving in slow motion and my heart was protruding from my chest like on an episode of Wile E. Coyote and The Road Runner 😍😍😍
Anyway this affliction, coz that shit was insane, clung to me for a whole year until I had the courage to say something. While in the meantime before I finally told moguy how I felt, my squad and I were waist deep into his cyber footprint. One cadet was in charge of Facebook another was in charge of Twirrer, while I was doing the field work. Yeyi, I failed a whole module because I could not concentrate 🙆♀️🙆♀️ Never even got DP😭 (Don’t tell my mom 🤫).
So when I eventually told him, dude was so nice but he wasn’t feeling me like that😢 And I guess out of pity he asked for my number and he and I started talking. Everyday! I thought I was winning him over I felt so comfortable with him, he was even asking me about wedding songs! Haibo nguwo, nguwo, nguwo!!!! 😝😝😝😝
But now I was confused uba, why is dude moving so slow? Like kanti when are we taking this to the next layvel??? 😕
Wuuuuh I realized ok there won’t be a next layvel instead I’m liking moguy even more and I am not getting anything out of this interaction. So I told him I was cutting communication with him.
But then somehow this started up again and we were talking like we used to and then uit van die blou the guy ghosted me, even before they made a term for it (what a pioneer 😭). There I was hurt and distraught, pining for a guy who had expressly told me he wasn’t into me like that. I was blinded by the smarts and the song he made for me, in my defense.
So now here’s what irks me:
I decided to focus on my school work to forget about this guy. Yeyi, I worked my ass off, didn’t have a mark less than 60 (which isn’t much but voesssek I’m proud) and even spent the night on campus studying at one point (still can’t believe I did that).
Then this guy from one of my classes, who was loud and funny but in a way that bordered on offensive expressed an interest in me. I thought wuuuh this one, is a lot! He talks too much, he doesn’t seem to be serious about anything, and I didn’t like the way he walked (don’t judge me I was stupid, we’ve established that already 🙄). Anyway, I turned him down, telling him I wasn’t looking to date until I completed my degree, which was true at the time.
KANTI🙆♀️🙆♀️🙆♀️ BIG MISTAKE
Jonga! This guy was a pilot, negro knew how to fly! He played the guitar, the other one did too, but this one would’ve sung me love songs like I always wanted😭 This dude was honest, overly so, but he didn’t hide what or who he was, and that is serious catnip for me shem 😱. He was older and had some good stories that I completely ignored. Not to mention this dude was smart! He cum lauded an undergrad degree!!! Who does that??? 😱😱😱
Moral of the story: don’t judge a book by the way it walks, read that b*tch!!!!
And also, what you want may actually be chasing you while you are chasing what doesn’t want you; if that makes sense, I’m on a sugar high 🙄.
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By Anonymous
Genius Level Blog – Let Your Ideas Outlive You
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